October 05, 2011

Yesterday, Today and the Days After

For the past two days, I've been reminded of death. Yesterday was our good friend Donna's 5th death anniversary- she should have been 29 now. She lived her life well, all 25 years of her beautiful life. Back in college, I remember how she patiently spent her entire day to help me out with a Flash-based web design project on a old desktop. It came out to be a beautiful project thanks to her. That's just that kind of person that she is, she would devote her time to be there- for work, for play, for love, for friends, for family, for life. She would do all of this joyfully, without any hesitation in her heart. 

Friends since HighSchool- Left to Right (Bottom): Kim, Donna, Me, Cam  (Top): Lana, Nona
Today, Steve Jobs- a man of extraordinary vision passed away. A man who has made something out of nothing. He immortalized himself by serving his life and through this he served others lives as well. While bravely saying yes to an idea, he was not afraid to work with every opportunity and failure whether foreseen or not. A man who did his job extraordinarily well, is still a man even if his name is Steve Jobs. "Stay hungry, Stay foolish...." -says the 56 year old Steve who made the digital renaissance days come alive. He also said that if everyday you lived your life as if it were your last; one day you'll probably be right. (Click it and see where it takes you!) 

The Trusty old Mac

The truth is in the back of my mind, there's always a hidden NO lurking around. "No that can't happen to me!" or "No I can't do that!" or "No, that's not my kind of thing!" or ""No, I can't lose what I love." No, I'm never gonna die." I think I'm not alone when I think about these things. The denial isn't apparent and that's what's scary cause it's what robs us of today. What if one day we just accept it and stop hesitating? What can happen? What else can happen?

The Hologramic Postcard: YESorNo

From No to Now what? To borrow the words from the Dave Matthews Band: (Listen to the part where the violin goes cuhrazyyy and when the saxophone smooths it out!)

I can't believe that we would 
Lie in our graves 
                                                                 Wondering if we had 
Spent our living days well 
I can't believe that we would 
Lie in our graves 
Dreaming of things that we 
Might have been 
Could have been

It's an old message but it's a message that we easily tend to forget. Without any hesitation in my heart I will live today as if it were my last and hopefully the days after too. And you know, I hope you do too, because we all can. 


  1. So what did you do today if you imagined it would be your last?

  2. I worked and played. The usual things really, only with better perspective and less complaining. :) The hesitating part I have to work on some more. Maybe I'll do that today.

  3. Plus I was kinder, I took more time being kind.